Angry, and half in love with you, and tremendously sorry, I turned away.
What is there to say? You know how much I have loved you.
yu’d hink it’d be easier to deal with when yur the one making all the hard decisions and having to be dry and not responding instantly so that they get the message that yu don’t need them and yu’ve moved on but in reality that just puts yu in the worst position by making yu second guess everything yu do and say with “is this the right thing to do” and “I want and love yu but fuck yu cause I deserve better” so at the end yur just forcing yurself to put up this front so that yu don’t end up hurt again but in reality just not being with that person and having to remember all the things they did to hurt yu on a daily basis so that yu don’t go running back is what ultimately breaks yu down making yu weaker and more vulnerable then ever and just plan out leaving yu regretting every decision wether right or wrong .
I’m cautious to talk about it. It’s about that moment when you really thought you knew everything about somebody. Everything was going well then all of a sudden everything just disappears. It’s that really hard moment of when your whole life changes, instantly.
i hate you but i know we still think about each other